As I sit here tonight, just one day away from leaving on another trip to Haiti, I am overwhelmed with a whole spectrum of emotions. I feel gratitude that God has opened the door for this trip to happen; I feel excitement that I will get to hold and play with the children again and I feel awe struck that God has led 16 people to leave their comfortable lives and step into caring for his children. These 16 people (myself included) do not know what awaits them on the the other side of the Atlantic. We don't know how we are going to feel when we see the poverty, the injustice and the pain. Even if you have been there before, there is always something new to see, to smell to feel. Each time we go God gives us a precious gift; He gives us a piece of His heart for the helpless. What a beautiful and scary gift. It is so deeply moving to feel wrecked for the very thing that wrecks God. It is also completely frightening to get a glimpse of God's heart because when we do we can't look away, we can't turn a deaf ear to the cries of these people, we can't go home and do nothing.
Lives are about to be changed. In the next few days people's hearts and lives will be challenged. All 16 of us will see some things that we will never forget. My prayer is that each of us will grab hold of what God has for us; that we will not walk away and return to our "normal" lives. It's a dangerous prayer but it is the true prayer of my heart; that we will see injustice and respond like Christ! This is a dangerous prayer because it is one that God will answer and when He answers it we will never be the same.
"The definition of evil in the world is when good men and women see injustice and do nothing. Here's another way to look at it: when it comes to caring for the people on God's heart, indifference is a sin" (Fields of the Fatherless, Tom Davis)
My desire is to make a difference. Not just for a week but for a lifetime.
